Tuesday, April 03, 2007 @11:38 PM
ok update on stuff.. we broke up like 3 weeks ago.. she insists that i haven gotten over my first so no matter what we had its already been discounted and that i was never with her. any ways i been hanging out and making major adjustments in my life thanks to janice and noorlinah( bestie and pp subject). jan's helping me by keeping me busy meeting up and taking care of my money. noorlinah is hmmm.. helping me figure out my gayness..( questiosn like are you sure this is what you want? Understand your parents..) which is good you know.. cuz that way i wont react badly in front of them. i figured i dun really need to come out to them, and cause them a heart attack if i dont need to. i had my first ONS the other day (last friday 30th of march) with a butch .. hmmm.. cant say that i liked it or hated it.. jus a victim of circumstances i guess.. haha..
current goals: forget/ get over ex. , stop falling for the next girl who shows interest in you for the sake of having a partner (though ONS sounds like a good idea) , love parents and dont do stuff that get on their toes.
been spending time at home since monday since i am not shadowing norlina.. so been online loads. today there was this girl who is offering to be my sugar mummy for reasons i wont want to mention (not love). i dont really know what to think abt it.. cept that the thought been brewing in my mind.
stalker man butch made contact again yesterday under false name, i stubbed her off.. jeeze some people just dun give up (its been like 1 1/2 years)
mummy is getting out of depression or trying to.. thanks Joyce for your blog on depression.. good to know mum is doing it right so far .. talkign abt her feelings and all ..
hmmm dun really know if any one reads this or not if not i guess its a personal memoir.. hai.. i guess Jo is right.. i need to rid my head off mic and learn to give my heart to some who deserves it.. no use getting all angry and jealous over other my ex..
look ahead, learn and change.. treat each day like a new beginning a renewal of love..
thinking of you is easier when i use the fade out effect.
♥ every page of my imagination