Wednesday, October 01, 2008 @12:26 PM
- i feel like every where i go more like any direction i take there is this huge wall that stands in my path.. let me explain. i would like to be an art teacher with moe or be a teacher that is. However i highly doubt that they would award scholarships and pay the kid while she is studying when she has a GPA of 2.55.. as compared to a person with 3 or 3.5 or worst 4 or with a degree..
- other direction.. to get a degree with laselle in graphic design and then apply with moe.. now this is totally linked to my love life.. my dad is totally against my lesbian lifestyle..(DUH) and thus he tells me that when we move to the new HDB she cannot come over to stay any more.. the link is here.. if i want to live my lesbian lifestyle i cannot have anything to do with my family..
- if i want to have my family i cannot have my gf.. i want to be with my gf but if i do i cannot achieve my dreams and accomplish wat i want to do.
- like for example.. i cannot drive, i cannot own a house, i cannot further my studies CUZ all these things require money..
- a luxury that i dun have.. THUS the way out is to WORK FOR MONEY!! save it all up and get out of shit hole situation!!
- like that fella said.. the only way to make much much much MONEY is to have a Bloody COMPELLING reason to do so!!!
- haiz.. then i come back to this situation.. the only job that can generate more money in the quickest amt of time is to:
- 1) get involved in gangster stuff 2) get involved in sleasy stuff 3) go into sales sell stuff and sell sell sell 4) pray and pray and be holy holy for money to fall from sky! haha (all these things does not go with my lifestyle. you may ask WHY? cuz 1) i am not part of a gang nor do i know anyone who will offer me such a job 2) my gf is possessive in that area and i dun really have the figure to pull it off 3) i hate sales i feel stressed when i deal with quotas and deadlines and i hate sales! like being in a family of direct sales enviroment dun teach u a lesson in living with sales ppl. 4) i dun think GOD is very happy with my not coupling with a man.. and plus .. i think good things happen to good ppl semi good ppl dun really get the full blessings..
- amen
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